It has been over a year since I have lost my baby brother, and I still havent cried for him. There were so many times when my eyes were ready to burst but a slight smear of what could have been a tear.
I hope he knows the suffering I bore when he left me alone in this world.
I went through pain I had never imagined existed.
Silence came and gone as it pleased setting a black hole inside, digging in around where I thought only I was allowed, and sorrow made me crazy like a zombie fresh out of a snake pit.
I know he is watching over me and all the people he goes on to love.
Until the day we meet, I shall be thinking of you always. Patiently I wait to create precious memories once more. In the mean time we will learn to cope while you are there and I am here. By the thought of your smile fills my heart with warmth as a virgin sun on a early sunny morning at dawn. May your new found journey in life be one that will take you places that last forever. As the wind blows on any day north or south may the breeze embrace your spirit in love, kindness, understanding, and strength. Take with you what you will for safe travels and sustenance as the family you left behind is in need to get by without having you here.
I hope he knows the suffering I bore when he left me alone in this world.
I went through pain I had never imagined existed.
Silence came and gone as it pleased setting a black hole inside, digging in around where I thought only I was allowed, and sorrow made me crazy like a zombie fresh out of a snake pit.
I know he is watching over me and all the people he goes on to love.
Until the day we meet, I shall be thinking of you always. Patiently I wait to create precious memories once more. In the mean time we will learn to cope while you are there and I am here. By the thought of your smile fills my heart with warmth as a virgin sun on a early sunny morning at dawn. May your new found journey in life be one that will take you places that last forever. As the wind blows on any day north or south may the breeze embrace your spirit in love, kindness, understanding, and strength. Take with you what you will for safe travels and sustenance as the family you left behind is in need to get by without having you here.
Just never forget everywhere you go, you are the one who taught me what is to be learned from death. A lesson I cherish dear to my life embodies.
Upon death we move foward so change from this life surely takes to begin our being. Death shall hem and seem all that is meant to fold together in perfect harmony. Sewing and binding a new you will come to know then soon uncover.
Only I can pray someday your brotherly love wont ever fade away. Only I can wish you dont leave my side through these few moments balance draws near its final race. Only I can dream you will endure no more foolish lies ignorance has spread like wildfire. Only I can envision my shadow swiftly following me back again. Only I can tell you the road ahead may be paved or may be bumpy, but its the way our walk of life tells a true story.
Only I can pray someday your brotherly love wont ever fade away. Only I can wish you dont leave my side through these few moments balance draws near its final race. Only I can dream you will endure no more foolish lies ignorance has spread like wildfire. Only I can envision my shadow swiftly following me back again. Only I can tell you the road ahead may be paved or may be bumpy, but its the way our walk of life tells a true story.
2 comments:
Z, those a nice words but I feel there is a much unresolved grief. There will come a time when you have to let the healing begin. You will have to open your heart and let him go. It appears that you are holding him to close. I will say a prayer for the both of you......
Frank
I sent a reply a bit ago but it was on a different post. duh... ~ Your right boss, I do say that in the beginning. If you thought the form and punctuation were way off your right... I wanted to do it that way for the effect. Cause going through in that time was the hardest time I ever been through in my life. It wasnt easy, nice, sweet, and nothing catching about it... that I did on purpose. Thanks for checking my page out. Bunches... on
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